Unfortunately you have not been coming out of inside yourself nowadays.
If you feel this message bothers you please delete it.
You have described in this site you are into Joseph Mallord William Turner.
Turner basically belongs to Romantic style artists but his works describe he was a pioneer of Present or Modern style art include some sort of abstract paintings.
Now If you do not mind I reccomend you re-start your new creation does not include figure of human animals and something has clear appearance.
This means you should start some kind of abstract style painting.
Because if you have damaged from your sorrowful experiences and you have not recovered from them yet it is hard that try to draw something has shape of living things.
Paintings with praying for your lost family without clear appearances will affect your heart and mind slowly but generally.
It is not necessary to add clear shapes because the image comes from inside of yourself.
And you should not ask your friends to feedback or state their impressions of your creation.
They are not necessary for you now.
If you'd like you should visit Tuener's art web site URL is as follows.
Keep well and bye!